Spiritual Fire Week! (Just for the Immediate Fam)

A big theme of my week has been the atonement because i am studying from an atonement packet we got for easter. I am learning to let go and move on. Accept that I am not perfect but God's grace is. I was reading the Beware of Pride talk by Ezra Taft Benson and wow it is great. You should read it!! I want to share two quotes I liked with you. "if we love god, do his will, and fear his judgement more than men's, we will have self-esteem." that hit home because i felt like i was struggling with that but i know i am searching gods will and following it but i need to work on my humility! adding to the end of the quote, we will also understand the universal need which is the knowledge of who we really are (at least i think so) as sons and daughters of God. That helps pretty much every problem we have it all starts there but its hard to really know that relationship but im striving to find it and wow the relationship i have grown with god is very real. He is a true friend. I dont have you guys anymore to rely on I have him.  Also I really liked this " Christ wants to lift us where he is. Do we desire to do the same for others?" It is such a great question to ask yourself....do we really desire the best for others and help them to get there. I know you guys have both done that for me :)

I want to share a very personal but very spiritual experience i had this past week. So i have really been searching for who god wants me to be. I have been praying for that for quite some time!! Then one morning this week when i was saying my morning prayer it just came to me. I just got my answer like a vision and knowledge. I could see and knew exactly who god wants me to become. I am already a very strong person. Strong willed dedicated leader. He wants me to still be that, to be strong and a force for good. To lead out and be a rock for my family and others but with that I saw someone very gentle loving and kind. A sort of quite strength overwhelmed with the utmost love. A person who people can feel safe with. very gentle is the only way i know how to explain it but this strength at the same time. Theres obviously more but cool huh? 

I know the reason i have been having whatever trails i have had in seeing my faults and everything is just to help me. I am becoming this person. Me and sister hougaard had a big talk this week and i was very open with her. Its super hard for me to open up and trust others. We love and fight like sisters but everytime im mean or selfish i feel bad but we talked about it and she opened up to me and it was great. Really this week was about one of the best weeks of my life. Just because there were so many miracles.

Thats my update for you guys on how i am.
I couldn't be better. :) this couldn't be harder but wow i couldn't be more blessed. 
Thank you for all you do for me mom and dad!

I LOVE YOU!

hna pentelute